Thursday, August 16, 2012

Finding My Smile: Day 11

We are home from our hellish family vacation. Everyday life waited for us back at home. Today the alarm clock went off at 5am and I was thrust back into my daily routine. Workout. Quiet shower. Protein shake. Wake up Lucifer for her photo shoot to help support women's health and the pink glove campaign. Yada Yada Yada.

Lucy had a 7:30 call time. Lucy doesn't even know what 7:30 looks like. Needless to say, she was awful. She wouldn't even change into her costume. Her PINK tu-tu costume. Lucy LOVES pink AND tu-tus. So.... We will try again later today after to takes a nap. It is now 10:49 and she has been asleep since 9:00. Hopefully she wakes up human, this time.

As I sit here, drinking coffee with Garth and watching Spongebob Square Pants with Hudson, I reflect on my love dare and my need to focus on day 11.

Lately, Garth has been tired of my negative attitude. My bad moods. My drama. I am exhausting him and not in a good way. He is such a kind and patient man. I need to reciprocate these qualities in the way that show him love I love him.

Day 11
LOVE CHERISHES

Husbands ought also to love their own wives as their own bodies. – Ephesians 5:28

If Garth loved me like he loved his own body, he would try to hump me all day long. Wait. He does do that.

He loves me. My body. My part in our marriage. Everything- expect the crazy parts maybe. I am realizing that all he is asking me is to show him that he makes me happy. Show him in the way he shows me- physically. I need to physically be happy. Physically say, "I am happy." Physically love him.

Men and women communicate love differently. We speak different languages. We need to blend these languages into one. Maybe we could take a lesson from Hudson- oogoogi.

I dare myself to show Garth how much I cherish him. I dare to try and speak his language. Because I love him. And I want him to feel as loved as he makes me feel. No matter how tired I am. Wish me luck.

Today's Dare

What need does your spouse have that you could meet today?
Can you run an errant? Give a back or foot massage? Is there housework you could help with?
Choose a gesture that says, "I cherish you," and do it with a smile.


Obviously Garth has no errands or housework he needs help with. And since this isn't about me, I guess I am going to have to find another way to cherish him. I wonder... Maybe a foot massage?

I better go find my smile.

-A



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