Deal Breakers

On the surface my life seems to be slowing down. Settling down. I am no longer living in fear of the next earthquake that might shatter my world. I'm sure glad the (has been) Mormon in me had enough food and water saved for these last few months. Because, I hardly left the house. And when I did, I usually forgot to put a bra on.

My parents divorce is the new normal. The new normal feels weird. Wrong. Inconvenient. But. Its my life. My new life.

It would be nice if all the water I have been treading these past few months made my legs look like a pro-tennis player. But we cant have it all, can we? I will survive. I am surviving.

All this change is changing me. Helping me to appreciate the people in my life. What they have to offer- their flaws, but also what they bring to my life.

It has been a year since this picture was taken. A lot can happen in year.

There is no certainty in the life. No one thing is permanent. I never know what tomorrow will bring.

I can say, however; that I believe that my love for my children is as permanent as it can get. Despite my constant frustration with their little attitudes, I love them. Forever. But. They better never do drugs. Or listen to country music. Those are deal breakers.

I believe that my parents love me. Always. Their choices are their choices. Any disappointment I have doesn't change my love for them. I am who I am today, because of them. Both.

But. They better not ever do drugs or listen to country music either. Deal. Breakers.

peace and love,
-A